something very heavy on my heart

I don't get it...how can you be raised in the church of Christ, your whole family are baptized believers. You went to church every sunday, every wednesday. You were involved in a youth group, you were even baptized yourself! How can you go from that to never going to church again, hating everyone involved with the church, sinning left and right. How can you stop this from happening? How can you look at someone, someone you grew up with in the church, someone who loved the Lord and not just scream at them, and cry and ask them how can this be! How does it happen? I can't tell you how much my heart just aches for my friends who have fallen away. You never expect it, never, and then it happens.